How Am I Gonna by Sony Holland and Jerry Holland

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Sony Holland Website




From the Kitchen Sessions collection. 
http://www.sonyholland.com
Recorded by Gary Mankin: Filmed by Terry Dudley

How Am I Gonna 
words & music J. Holland, Heebalibra Music, BMI

Second shift on the cafe crew
There’s a red sun sinking down the avenue
Tired in my bones, tired in my brains
Need time off to ditch these chains…
But how am I gonna make the rent 
How am I gonna pay the bills
Without surrendering my soul
Falling down that hole

Young and beautiful yoga girls
In Lululemons, balayage curls
Camping at tables, tall summer drink
Halfway smile even while I think
How am I gonna find the means
Have some fun, spread my wings
Without relinquishing control
Saving my soul

I want to run with the poets and painters
The artists and writers and sweet music makers
I want to live with the dreamers and dancers
I keep knocking on the door but nobody answers…

Time I finally catch my breath
Devil’s hour and I sleep like death
Some days rise like a ray of hope
Some come apart like a thread-bare rope
How am I gonna make the rent 
How am I gonna pay the bills
Without surrendering my soul
Falling down that hole
How am I gonna find the means
Have some fun, spread my wings
Without relinquishing control
Saving my soul…

Original Words and Music by J. Holland
Vocals Sony Holland
Photo and Video by Terry Dudley

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