Desiree Cady Poetic Stylist

Desiree Cady Poetic Stylist

Bio

I am a 33 year old mother of two beautiful girls who have been my saving grace. After a brutal attack a few years ago, I have been plagued by PTSD. After the attack and a few suicide attempts, I vowed to tell my story and help inspire others to get help and to know that they are not alone.

I am currently wrapping up two manuscripts for publication and am set to be published in an upcoming anthology that will come out mid - November.

You can find more of my work at
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Courage

With pain in her heart

And fear in her eyes

She packed up her things

Left without a single goodbye

Not a bruise on her body

His fists left no trace

But his words resonated

Deep down in a sacred place

At 19 she was a child

Not knowing what love was

Naive she believed him

Like a young child does

As she became older

That is when she knew

Love isnt just something you say

It's something you do

His words they cut deep

Ripping out her soul

He began diminishing her happiness

Her innocence he stole

Stand by her family

Be faithful to her man

Til death do us part

That was supposed to be the plan

No longer wanting to gamble

When her life was at stake

She swallowed her fears

Decided it was a risk she would take

For his "love" was killing her

She was finally done

Spending another second with him

Was roulette with a fully loaded gun

She decided it was time

To finally say goodbye

She left that day

She stopped living a lie

For the choice was so clear

She could live in hell as his wife

Or she could take back control

And save her own life

Soul Kissed by Desiree Cady

Soul Kissed

I didn't know my soul was starving

Until I got a taste of you

Didn't know how much I was missing

Until you did the things you do

I thought I had felt true love

Before I felt your tender touch

You came into my life

You have taught me so very much

You showed me a different man

One I knew nothing about

One who can speak his feelings

Doesn't always have to shout

A man who can tell me he loves me

And I know that is enough

One who will stand beside me

Even when things get a little tough

You've shown me so much different

Than I have ever known

Just these few months with you

It's amazing how much I have grown

When it comes to decent men

You are truly one of a kind

I have been blessed in this lifetime

To be able to have claimed you as mine

Untimely Goodbye By Desiree Cady

Untimely Goodbye

Our journey is ending far too soon

We have only just met

I'm not ready to say goodbye

Not prepared for it to end just yet

In my head I had dreams

Of building a life together

Now it seems that's all changed

As quickly as the weather

I know it's not your fault

And it's not what you would choose

We just found this new love

One we are nowhere near ready to lose

Not sure now just what

Our future is going to bring

But let me tell you this

I want you to know this one thing

You came into my life

Like a breath of fresh air

Picked me up and gave me strength

Showed me how someone can truly care

I will never forget what it is

That you and I share in our hearts

The love I have for you will still be real

Even when we are miles apart.

Sweet Memories by Desiree Cady

I can still feel your breath on my skin

Your lips down my spine

I can still taste your kiss

As your lips touch mine

I can still hear the sound of your voice

As you whisper my name

The touch of your hands

As they slide down my frame

As clear as the memories

Are in my head

I wish we were in the flesh

Reliving them instead

Goodbye By Desiree Cady

So many times I have let you in

Just to play with my emotions

Yes, it is true, love may cause tears

But mine could have filled the oceans

I am finally free of the chains

You once held over me

Now you want to come back

We'll make it work, you beg and you plead

If I thought for one second That things could change

That the words you spoke were true

I would sacrifice my happiness for my family

That is the girl you thought you knew

But I have had time to examine myself

I have also met someone

I have learned there is more value to me

And I deserve better than what you have done

I stood by and gave it my all

Through so many torturous years

I am smiling now most everyday

I will not go back to the tears

You had a good woman

One who loved you til she had nothing left

But what I was doing to myself

Was leading me to a slow death

You made your choice

When you walked out that door

Left me heartbroken in pieces

Lying in my tears on the floor

Now be a man and own up

To what it is you've done

You no longer wanted to play the game

Now just accept, it's over, you won.

An Unpromised Vow by Desiree Cady

An Unpromised Vow

It was a day of laughter

A day of smiles

When she put on her white dress

And walked down the aisle.

And as she walked toward

The groom in his black suit and tie

The church filled with friends and family

You couldn't find a dry eye.

As she whispered her vows

Till death do they part

She had no prediction

Of the hell that was about to start.

But as soon as the crowd was gone

And he carried her across the threshold

The threats and abuse reigned down

Leaving her dead inside with an intense cold.

As time went on she became a prisoner

Trapped in her own private hell

So much pain she held inside

It wasn't long until...

It was a day of sadness

And a day of tears

When they buried her body in the ground

After just a few years.

Memorial Day Moment

By Desiree Cady

They stand and fight

Put their lives on the line

Give up everything they have

Just to make sure our citizens are fine

March into battle bravely

Their strength pulls them through

They lose their lives

To protect me and you

Some come home from battle

Beaten and torn

Scarred from their memories

Their hearts are all worn

They deserve our respect

And yet so much more

They are the soldiers, our heroes,

The prisoners of war.

Happy Memorial Day

And thank you to the many men and women who have fought, continue to fight, and will fight in the future to protect our America.

Words cannot express my love and Gratitude

New Love Wonder by Desiree Cady

As the dawn of the day

Seeps through the blinds

I awake next to you

With happiness in mind

Not sure yet of what

Our future will hold

In my heart I hope next to you

I will be growing old

Our feelings are new

Though We have just met

I feel you understand me

Better than anyone yet

I am scared of you

You scared of me

So afraid to fall and get hurt

If only the future we could see

Take a chance on me

And hand me your heart

I promise to cherish, love, and protect

Each and every last part.

You

You are the air that I breathe

The fire in my soul

You are what makes my life complete

You are what makes me whole.

You are the stars in the sky

The dawn's early light

You're the one biggest reason

to continue the fight.

You are what God had in mind

when he created the mold

Of His one perfect Angel

everything to treasure, cherish and hold.

You're the warm summer breeze

or cool winter night,

You are the sun in the sky

Shining your eternal light.

You are my daughters

pulled straight from my womb

You were brought to this earth -- beautiful perfection to rid my world of gloom.

Mommy loves you Cadylynn and Jasmine to the moon and back and around the universe a few more million times.

Free

I remember you once told me

That I could not survive without you

Well sit back and prepare for the amazing things

that I am about to do

For years I thought that it was you

That held me tightly together

But now I look back and I see

It was me who was withstanding the harshest weather

When you left I was so lost

I was just so damned scared

But looking back I see now

I was the only one that cared

I had so much love in my heart

Devoted to what I thought we were

That I would've never found the strength to leave

So I am thankful that you did it first

I am finally free to be the woman

That I once used to be

I am finally free to smile again

To find the beautiful side of me.

Cold Whispers

His words, they were nothing

but cold whispers in the middle of the night

Caught up in the moment

But oh they felt so right

I try to tell myself that with time

Some people's feelings change

But mine never did

And that's what I find so strange

His words they cut me deep

Right to the very core

Such cold and evil hatred

He'd never expressed before

So now I am wondering

That passion that I felt

Was it always truly one sided

Was that the hand that I was dealt?

Though every lie he told me

His words made my heart melt

His lying cold whispers they've left

My heart an empty welt.

Heart Over Mind by Desiree Cady

They say follow your heart

She is supposed to know the way

But she is running away with my emotions

Which is making for a wonderful today

What if she is falling

Just a little bit too fast?

So scared she may be wrong

Lord knows she was in the past

So she has decided

To have a conversation with her mind

Despite what her heart says

She will take each day one at a time

She will not put up those walls

Guard herself from possible pain

There is no need to judge this ray of sunshine

By the ones who brought her rain

Live in the very moment

Take a step away from the past

The mind says give it a chance

Maybe the heart is right...

Maybe this one will last

Daddy's little girl

He was filled with nervous energy

As he took her hand in his

Being in the church on this day

Was an event he'd never miss

He took his place beside her

As she wore that white dress

His heart filled with pride

There was something he needed to address

He said, " You are the most beautiful girl

That I have ever known

I enjoyed every moment with you

Watched you over the years as you've grown"

"I am about to watch you leave me

Take the next step in your life

I am about to give you to this man

You are about to be his wife"

He turned to the groom

With a protective gleam in his eye

Said, "This is Daddy's little girl,

Don't you ever make her cry"

"Consider this a warning

This girl is my everything

If you ever cause her harm

Hell on you I promise I will bring"

"Treat her like a princess

Love her like a queen

Show her what the word love is

Show her what it means"

To her he turned

As a tear fell from his eye,

"You'll always be daddy's girl

Even though you're married to this guy"

"Always remember, don't ever forget

You will always have my heart

There will never be anything I won't do

No distance that will keep us apart"

"If you ever need me

Just you let me know

There is no limit for what I'll do for you

No distance I won't go"

When

By Desiree Cady

I miss our love

When it was fresh and new

When there was so much passion

In everything that we'd do

When each and every touch

Came as a pleasant surprise

When we would get lost in each other

Completely mesmerized

When there was not a single doubt

That you liked what you saw

When the desire in your eyes

Showed a love that was raw

When each and every day

Wasn't more of the same

When living this life

Didn't seem so mundane

When a single thought of you

Put a smile upon my face

Before all of the magic

Disappeared without a trace

When I knew just what to do

To get us back on track

To rekindle the flame

To get that fiery spark back

When I didn't have to question

If your love for me was true

When I could see all your love

In everything that you'd do

When I was sure of my place

Inside of your heart

When I knew where I fit in

When I possessed every part

When I knew that I was all that you wanted

Everything you'd ever need

When being in my life

Didn't just seem like another deed

When you told me you loved me

But that wasn't a strong enough word

When actions spoke louder

When what you felt I clearly heard

When love wasn't just word

But expressed with every action

When our love seemed more

Than just fatal attraction

GAME OVER

By Desiree Cady

Sometimes life hands us a card from a deck when we were not even aware that we were a player in the game ...and it stops you dead in your tracks for a moment. You find yourself gridlocked, not knowing what to do.

Life has dealt me one of these cards.

I always say that knowledge is power. When you are faced with disease, arm yourself with as much information as you can, so that you understand the beast that is bullying you.

So I guess that is what I must do. For whatever reason, if you believe that sort of thing, someone has handed me another test. One, at first that I crumpled up and tossed away, because I hadn't studied. A pop quiz that I wasn't prepared for.

But I've always been an overachiever. Not content with not succeeding. And in this case, I have no choice but to attempt to make some sort of sense out of this nonsense.

But its going to take me some time to regroup. My mind wasnt quite prepared. I knew by the amount of pain, bleeding, and sudden weight loss, that it wasnt going to be pretty ...but I guess I just assumed that like my many other health issues, they would find out what was wrong, do some sort of surgery, and I would be good.

Instead, its just one more thing to add to my medical resume that a 33 year old shouldnt have to deal with.

Im just so frustrated that my mind had started to finally heal and now my body is falling apart. It just doesn't seem fair.

I don't know what my future holds at this point. Im scared to be honest. I feel defeated, like a burden once again. That eventually the ones who say they will never leave my side will either do so, or simply stay out of a feeling of guilt or because they feel obligated. That they will no longer want me, and I don't blame them. Honestly, I don't even want to be around me anymore.

I just feel lost, useless, and defeated. Like once again the game of life has come along and said to me, "You only thought that you were pulling ahead in this game. Jokes on you. I will always have a few cards up my sleeve that I can throw into play. Don't ever get too comfortable, because I call the shots here, and at any time I want to I can claim my victory. At any time I want to, I can declare Game over."

Beauty and The Beast

She was the beauty

And he was the beast

Teaching her the things

She never knew about in the least.

He brought out a side of her

That she never knew.

Making her want to do things

That enchanted lovers would do.

He brought out a side

Of lustful, raw, desire.

Each time they touched

Her mind went higher and higher.

He brought about the

Free spirited wild side of her

But don't be fooled

For he, too, had some things to learn.

She taught him about things

Like true love and trust.

Taught him there should always be

Passion not just lust.

A new kind of world

He is living in now.

He promised forever

And stayed true to his vow.

She gave him new feelings

He'd never known about before

'Til it wasn't long he made a request

And his children she bore.

He traded his life that he'd had in the past.

Just to hear his little girls say

"Daddy we love you"

And with her a love that would last.

She was the beauty

And he was the beast

Now they're living a life

They wouldn't trade in the least.

Until Angels Close Our Eyes

My love for you
is forever strong
It has to be right
it can't be wrong
Our hearts belong together
it is no lie
We'll be together
until angels close our eyes.

The first time I saw you
that moment I knew
Together forever ..
it'll be me and you
I'll never say goodbye.
We'll be together
until angels close our eyes.

Day after day
your hand I will hold
We'll be together
loving growing old.
When our days are numbered there's no need to cry
We'll be together
until angels close our eyes.

When I leave this world
and am no longer here
There's no need to cry,
Just lend me your ear
I am still here
Just look at the skies
We'll be together
When angels close your eyes.

Healing a Broken Soul by Desiree Cady

You shivered when I touched you
Although my hands were warm
You bundled yourself up in protective clothing
Though the bright skies show no sign of storm

A bitter heart is broken
A soul I see you've lost
All of the people in your past
They've hurt you..just see what it has cost

You cannot go on living
In a world where you are full of fear
How do I do it you ask
Listen closely, let me whisper in your ear

I have gone back to the trusting
Little girl I used to know
So convinced the world means well
Yes, it is delusional I know

I put on a happy front
Place a smile upon my face
Take myself somewhere else
A much better place

I tell myself I could remain
Damaged broken and bruised
But that would be just one more way
I would be allowing myself to be used

So I remember how much love
I once had inside my heart
I provide that to the world
And tell myself I am doing my part

You may see me as caring,
trusting and naive
At times I do appear to carry
My heart upon my sleeve

But deep inside I am always scared
I hide behind my walls
So convinced that sooner or later
The devil will again come to call

But for now I polish myself up
Tighten my own wings
For if i hide my beautiful self
There would be no sadder thing.

©2016
Desiree Cady

Untitled by Desiree Cady

I've had to walk a mile
In far too many shoes
Had to fight some battles
I thought for sure that I would lose

Something deep within me
wouldn't let me give up
Just when I thought my strength was gone
Something came along and filled my cup

I've watched my blood fall to the floor
In times I no longer wanted to live my life
Some of the saddest scars I possess
Came from the blade of my own knife

I lay prisoner for hours
While my captor left me bloody and bruised
One thing all of it taught me
Was to be strong, fight, refuse to ever again be used

I lay there thinking my life
Was surely about to end
I prayed the lord for a savior
But not one angel did he send

In that moment I had to survive
Had to gather all that I had
The only one I could count on then
Was me...it truly was so sad

I lived through that moment
And have struggled in every possible way
The things that experience taught me
Made me the person you see standing here today

I will go on living
I will never be broken again
Because what all of this has taught me is...
I am my own strongest friend.

©2016
Desiree Cady

Grounded Angel By Desiree Cady

Grounded Angel
By Desiree Cady

The devil appeared
Such an evil, dark one
Told me his plan
By the end I knew I was done.

I had met a force
Sure to break me down
In a pool of my own blood
I was sure to drown.

He said, " You can't be this innocent,
You can't be this sweet.
I will deny you of your wings
And you can join me below in my hellish heat."

He proceeded to attack,
Stripped me of my wings..
But I sensed God was present
So I didn't feel a thing.

He thought he had won
As he took my weapons of flight
But I fooled him..for even a broken winged angel
Can still stand up and fight.

Courageous Woman By Desiree Cady

Courageous Woman
By Desiree Cady

I don't know how you do it
How you keep faking your beautiful smile
When I know the pain you've known
Keeps you walking those extra miles

You say that faith gets you through
You owe it to your prayers
I look at you in disbelief
I can't help but to stop and stare

You possess a strength inside you
Precious and unique
You say what needs to be said
When others are too frightened to speak

You hold within you a power
So unbelievably strong
You say what is on your mind
Even when you know it may be wrong

You stand up tall, You stand and fight
Through so many of your demons
So many others would lie down and fail
For so many different reasons

Do me a for just this once
Take a hard look inside of you
There is such tremendous bravery
In everything you do.

©2016

Brave Soul

Speak when your voice shakes

Love even though your heart breaks

Walk even if at first you stumble

Stand tall even when you have every reason to crumble.

Hope even when you think there's nothing left

Wipe away your tears even after you've wept

Love even after your heart has been broke

Make the most of each day, for you have been blessed and awoke.

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